Book excerpt: a college student's message about not wanting to live

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Hello. I'm a college student.

Suicide, you ask?

We got your message saying there were no accidents, no emergencies. So we thought you were okay. That we'd done our job. But honestly... we never actually came up with a real plan for you, did we. That exam you had the next day. We never asked if you'd be able to handle it. We just... let you go. And now I wonder. Would you have hurt yourself that day? Could we have done more? I still think about it. Even now.

I visited your grave recently. The whole team did. We don't say much. We just go.

I'm sorry. I really am. If any part of you is still out there somehow... I hope you know that.