Every woman in my family dies at 41. I'm 18.

I wasn't going to post this but I need to get it out.

Everything I'm about to write actually happened.

Right now it's just me and my grandfather. My great-uncle, who lived with us, passed away two years ago. My dad divorced my mom before I was even born so I literally have no memory of his face. My grandmother died before I was born too. And my mom... she was genuinely the sweetest person. Great cook, beautiful, had this amazing sense of style.

She died three years ago. Car accident.

Three days before she died, my aunt (who was in the hospital at the time) had a dream. She saw my mom and my late uncle standing on the other side of a river, waving her over. Like, *come here.* But since my mom was totally fine at that point, my aunt just brushed it off as a weird dream.

I only found out about this from another relative at the funeral.

And my aunt? She died the same day my mom did.

Here's where it gets actually creepy. Every time I try to go to the accident site, it rains. Every single time. And I can't get there. Like physically cannot arrive. I grew up in this town, I went to that area multiple times for school club activities in middle school. I know these roads. There is no reason I should be getting lost.

But I still haven't been able to reach the spot. Not once.

And then recently I noticed something that's been keeping me up at night.

My mom. My grandmother. My great-grandmother.

All three died at 41.

Different causes. Same age. And only the women.

Is this just a coincidence??

I'm 18 right now, turning 19 soon.

In 22 years...

will I still be here