I had the same dream my whole childhood. then I found out why.

okay I wasn't going to post this but it's been sitting in my head for two years now so here we go.

my whole life, since I was little, I kept having this one recurring dream. always right as I was falling asleep. first thing I'd see was this pattern, white and gray, like waves. then I'd hear voices.

"Ah!"

"What happened?"

"It went through."

"Try pulling it a little... is it too much?"

"Can't be helped..."

that was it. every time. I'd wake up and forget most of it but while I was dreaming I'd always think "oh. this dream again."

two years ago in March, I had a miscarriage. I needed surgery. uterine surgery, which meant full anesthesia.

so they put me under and as I started drifting... the white and gray wave pattern appeared in front of my eyes.

and then the two nurses next to me started talking.

they said THE EXACT SAME WORDS. word for word. the conversation from my dream. the one I'd been having since childhood.

I was fading fast from the anesthesia but I remember thinking "wait. was this dream... predicting THIS moment?"

and then I heard a man's voice.

"Do it again!"

and then.

I was on a gurney. white curtains on both sides, making a little corridor, and I was lying in the middle of it.

then the curtains just. SPLIT OPEN. and arms. SO MANY ARMS started reaching through from both sides, pushing the gurney forward. faster and faster.

I knew, immediately, with everything I had, that whatever this was it was DANGEROUS. I started ripping the arms off, pulling them away, but more kept coming. more and more and more.

I was being dragged into the dark.

I genuinely thought that was it...

and then a nurse slapped me across the face and I woke up.

barely got my eyes open. looked around.

the nurse told me my heart rate had dropped dangerously low. they had to force me awake.

I don't know what that place was. I don't know what would've happened if she hadn't slapped me.

but that dream. the one I'd had my whole life.

never had it again after that day.