am I being too sensitive or is my bf actually the problem

okay I have nowhere else to vent so I'm posting this here. gonna try to be as objective as I can.

me and my bf have been together almost a year. we're dating with marriage in mind and we're currently living together because of some complicated circumstances.

aside from having a temper sometimes, he's genuinely sweet. always puts me first, helps around the house, the whole thing. if I had to describe us it'd be like fire and water. we get along fine most of the time, and when we do fight it blows over fast because we're both pretty simple people.

but today. TODAY.

first of all my period started so I was already a little on edge. I even told him upfront, hey I might be irritable today because of cramps.

so here's this habit of his that drives me crazy. whenever we eat out for dinner, he HAS to order beer. and he's the type who just drinks, no food, just beer. I don't really drink so I never join him, and he doesn't push me which is fine. that part's fine.

but we always order more than enough food. we finish eating, there's still some left on the table, I'm full and tired and just want to shower and pass out. we get home and he goes "I'm hungry, can you make me something?"

the first few times early in the relationship I was like okay whatever and did it. but it kept happening. and happening. I got tired of it. so at some point I put my foot down and said eat enough when we're OUT, I'm not cooking when we get home, figure it out yourself.

tonight. we eat out, get home, and he says he's hungry again.

I finally said something. I told him if he wants to make himself something I won't stop him. I literally stocked up on instant stuff for exactly this, there's porridge packets, 3-minute ramen, canned tuna, all his favorites. but he wanted me to make it FOR him and I said no. I'm exhausted. there's rice in the rice cooker, make your own plate.

he sulked a bit (he was kinda drunk), muttered to himself, then grabbed some chocolate snacks from the cabinet. okay. fine. that part passed.

but then.

okay so I HATE being sat on. I have rhinitis and it literally makes it hard to breathe, plus I just hate the feeling in general. I have told him this. easily dozens of times. probably hundreds at this point.

he does it anyway. "as a joke."

I calmly told him to get off. he said okay. didn't move.

I said it again. still didn't move.

does this man hear me. DOES HE HEAR ME.

I snapped and yelled GET OFF. and then he had the nerve to call me sensitive, started muttering, and somewhere in there I heard him say "ㅅㅂ" under his breath.

did you just curse at me. and he looked at me with this "so what are you gonna do about it" face and said something dismissive and I just. I felt everything go cold. the affection just LEFT my body.

I know I shouldn't have said it but it slipped out. I told him I'm losing feelings. then I turned over and lay there.

he threw his phone on the floor, cursed a few more times, and went to sleep.

I know saying "I'm losing feelings" was too far and I'm going to apologize for that in person tomorrow. I genuinely am.

but what makes me so frustrated is that I've told him over and over what bothers me. sitting on me. biting me. coming home and asking me to cook after we just ate out. I've said it SO many times. and he keeps doing it anyway.

and when he wants to make up? his move is to sit on me. playfully. as a gesture. the thing I specifically told him I hate.

I've literally said before, if you want to make up at least don't do the thing I hate. does he get that??

look he's not bad overall. genuinely. he doesn't go to hostess bars, he's handy and fixes everything around the house, he doesn't lie (almost too honest sometimes lol), our schedules match well, he's tidy, his family is lovely and we get along great, and HE'S always the one who initiates making up after fights.

but this thing where he can do whatever he wants and I'M the one being "too much" when I react... I keep asking myself if I can actually keep trusting this person long-term.

to make things worse we work at the same company so we're commuting together tomorrow. my head hurts just thinking about it.

now that I've calmed down I'm wondering if I blew up over nothing. am I just being sensitive?